Just as I started wondering

how to be in the world, but not of the world, I found a Word that has given me a fresh focus. With money, or the fear of losing it all or the fear of having little to none all of the sudden, having been so in the forefront of my mind lately - well, let's just say I was in serious need of a Word from God. I've been trying to get through this book, and although it's a great book, it's been a little struggle. See, I want to be reading the rest of the Twilight books, but I need to finish Calm My Anxious Heart. I made myself take a break from Twilight for a bit to accomplish this and, much to my embarrassment, in the time it's taking me to finish the Christian book, I'm sure I would have devoured 3 Twilights. I'm so proud.

This is not to say that Calm My Anxious Heart is not a wonderful, well-written, full of scripture book, because it is all of that and more. This is more a commentary on my priorities. But I was reading it last night and found a different version of Ephesians 3:10 that really spoke to me. About money, or lack of money. About worry. About purpose. See for yourself:

[For my determined purpose is] that I may know Him [that I may progressively become more deeply and intimately acquainted with Him, perceiving and recognizing and understanding the wonders of His Person more strongly and more clearly]... Amplified

If I will just make this my focus, my determined purpose, everything else will work out while I'm becoming more acquainted with Him. God is so faithful to provide just the Word I so desperately need to hear. It's taken me 32 years to truly, seriously appreciate the God-breathed word to this degree. Oh, and I'm going to go read more of this book now...


PS However, this does not mean I will not be finishing reading the Twilight books at some point. If I don't soon, someone is going to spill all the beans... and a little innocent romantic fiction never killed anyone...